How I feel…

Something I’ve learnt recently and I think many women (Or men) can relate to this post. Some of us might suffer from mood swings and some just might not be able to control their emotions in that current moment. I would like to think that this behaviour is normal/acceptable because us human are designed to have these emotions but really… it’s not.

We all have reasons for why we act certain ways whether is angry because we’ve had a bad day at work, upset because something has happened to us in our personal life’s or worrying about something that we totally have no control over. In many occasions women seems to enjoy using the “hormone” excuse and in some cases it is true (In this case gentlemen, do not test your lady’s patience). Normally mood swings go from you being the happiest person in the world to the most miserable person in the world within a minute. Personally for me it comes from stress and overthinking things all the time and as soon as I’m in that zone I feel like there’s no getting out. I seem to really focus on that bad energy and this might be one of the main reasons why I seem to get ill easily and it seems to make it harder for me to deal with Endometriosis.

It’s important for us to take control of our actions instead of blaming others around us or even take it out on them sometimes. I would like to think my partner is the strongest person I’ve ever met and he’s very strong minded that’s why he’s able to put up with so much BS I’ve thrown his way. It doesn’t take a lot for us to just take a minute and breathe. Think before we speak, clear our minds and then maybe return to whatever conversation you were having. Stress is not good for your health or making a rational decision in that precise moment. You will be able to deal with any obstacles when you have a straight head. This really is just common sense but is something that gets overlooked ever so often. So ladies and gentlemen it’s all good and well to use our heart and let that feelings out but sometimes we have to use our mind for a better outcome.

Feelings or emotions are the universal language and are to be honored. They are the authentic expression of who you are at your deepest place. – Judith Wright

P x


70 thoughts on “How I feel…

  1. I appreciate this blog post’s truths…
    If one thing happens to me—or if I’ve made one mistake the strenght of my ‘recoil’ from everyone around me is great; The atmosphere has changed, my heart aches, my mind is jumbled up, my good mood has vanished….basically my whole day is ruined.

    At that point I try to remember who I am (I am not failure), try to get myself (you can do better), and sometimes it get me back in a good mood quite quickly, but most times its an awfully slow process.

    But I continue to persevere.

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      1. Thanks. I’ve been going through a lot lately and I’ve been dealing with loads of stress but I’m not giving up. Life is hard right now but since I’m in difficult times right now, I feel the future will be a nice come-up for me.

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  2. What a lovely post my love! You are one strong women and will continue to be through all this heart ache and pain! I love you millions and will always be by yourside xx

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  3. my daughter being a nurse and i heard of this but didn’t know anything about it , but i just found this out which helps me to understand it.
    this is what i found :
    Endometriosis is a disorder in which the tissues that grow within the body and line the inside of the uterus walls actually grow outside of the uterus. This condition can be fairly common, with over 200,000 cases diagnosed every year in the United States alone. These tissues that grow outside of the uterus can begin to grow along either of the intestines, the ovaries and the fallopian tubes. However, there are treatments for this condition, and they can include medications for the pain, as well as hormonal treatments and, as a last resort, surgery.
    1. Menstrual Problems
    Of course, there is always some pain associated with most women’s menstruation cycle, and it can vary from woman to woman, also depending upon each particular woman’s overall tolerance of the pain. However, if you are a woman and have experienced what can be considered typical menstruation cycles, you can definitely tell when something just doesn’t seem to be quite right. This type of pain can begin about a week before the period during ovulation, and it can continue up to one week after the menstruation has ended. The pain is generally a cramping sensation, but much more intense than typically experienced during menstruation.

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  4. Lovely thoughts. Life throws all sorts of things at us but we determine how to respond.
    Like you rightly pointed out, we should not settle for less than the ideal, especially when we can do something about it.
    If we could be masters over our emotions, we would have automatically crossed many incredible hurdles in life.

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  5. Oh my goodness, I know what you mean. It’s as if there’s no space to admit the existence of stress and lack of happiness-everyone is pressed to act like everything is ok. I think sometimes it’s best to feel the feels and keep it pushing. I am sending blessings to you on your journey! 😀


  6. Continue to remain strong and being the fighter that you are, pvnida. In addition, what you have spoken is so true. We should not push blame on one another, but rather, to just simply take the chance to just stay silent and listen to someone for a chance.


  7. If every human being possessed this same thought process the world would be a much more pleasurable place. Good writing! That emotional intelligence is crucial. Takes a lot of discipline and practice but it is something that can very well be mastered. Keep pushing on and sharing your message, I enjoyed this read!
    -Easy B


  8. Very thoughtful and honest post. I think that life can be a bit like riding the waves. Some are gentle and feel so good as you feel your body rise without having to put in any effort. And others are absolutely ferocious and result in you having to either fight against them or let them leave their bruises – and either choice leaves you feeling anxious and warn out. We often don’t know how we will handle life’s waves, but I think the important thing is to keep riding them and know that some are much better than others.


  9. I read the following in a book at the library this past weekend:

    Wannabe resolutions are stimulated by powerful fantasies of a future self. Imagining ourselves happier, fitter, or more financially secure inspires us and ignites our will to change. If our goal is to be slim and fit, we visualize ourselves looking svelte on the beach come summer and stick a buff pinup on the fridge to bolster our resolve. Our dream self is so inspiring that we feel certain we can sustain our will no matter how demanding the regimen we adopt to reach our goal. But before opening day at the beach, our will collapses, thwarted by the long-established behaviors that sustain our everyday lives. We chastise ourselves for our lack of self-control, but in fact our willpower was simply outmatched by the tenacity of our habits, attitudes, and routines.

    We are each driven by a system of unconscious habits and preferences nurtured early in life and entrenched through repetition. These established behaviors and attitudes form a kind of autopilot, which quietly and efficiently manages most of the routine tasks and decision making that we perform each day, preserving previous mental energy and initiative for new learning, problem solving, and idea generation. We don’t have to concentrate to tie our shoes — autopilot ties them for us. Autopilot makes the coffee, locks the door, and drives the car. But your autopilot may also skip the gym, binge on sweets, overspend, or snap at your spouse. Operating largely unnoticed, the deeply rooted habits of autopilot drive individual outcomes, both good and bad. New behavioral research confirms that we are neither aware of nor in control of the routines that govern our lives. As British researchers summarized in a recent study published in Health Psychology, “[habit] automaticity may be broken down into a number of features: lack of awareness, mental efficiency, lack of control and lack of conscious intent.” In other words, we don’t think about what we’re doing; we just do it, unaware of how our autopilot drives us toward success or failure.

    … (pages later)

    Familiar habits and behaviors sustain and comfort us in our daily lives. Our mental, emotional, and physical habits are closely tied to the family values and routines we learned in childhood. All that early conditioning — your parents pestering you to hang up your coat, chew with your mouth closed, clean your plate, and be a good sport — established behaviors and preferences that allow you to operate on autopilot with respect to many of the actions and decisions you make each day. Disturbing these routines creates awkwardness, mental fatigue, emotional stress, and a strong impulse to revert to what feels right — to autopilot. The more change we take on, the more mental and emotional resistance we arouse in ourselves, such resistance brewing often just beneath the surface of our consciousness.

    … It’s from “Small Move, Big Change.” When I returned it to the shelf, I picked up another book (“Emotional Agility”), and the first page I turned to mentioned “autopilot.” In the vein of “everything happens for a reason,” maybe you stumbled upon my memoir today so it would lead me to this blog post so that I could share this with you. Just a thought…

    Take care of yourself. ❤

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  10. I have always called it my “chemical imbalance” and good old Dr. Parikh has me on a handful of pills. I do feel better, but I also feel as though I am cheating somehow, taking the easy way out … I guess whatever works for you!


  11. I had this on and off for years being first diagnosed right when we as a family were battling with the aftermath of one death, were fighting for the life of my husband (that battle was lost as well) and preparing for emigration. I have the symptoms now as well going through aging. It is hard, but not as hard as some emotional battles. Keep strong and find a really good doctor, a caring one – this is, possibly, the hardest thing to do. Good luck and refuah shelemah!


    1. I’m so sorry to hear about your husband, may he rest in peace. Regarding your emotional side to this I want you to understand that you are not alone. I continuously have mood swings and sometime I cannot control it. Please note I am not a professional so my advice may not work for you. For me I try to let it out because keeping whatever you feel inside will keep building up. I find that talking about this to my loved ones helps and that way you don’t feel like your carrying everything on your shoulder


  12. HI, I was diagnosed with endo right after my second child was born. It was a surprise because my two kids are only 17 months apart and I had spent about a total of three years either gestating or lactating and had no problems previously. When my son was 2 I finally decided to have surgery and it was a smart decision for me. I felt better right away. That son is now 21 and a few years ago the endo had, slowly crept back. I decided to “ignore” it as best I could knowing that menopause was on the horizon. I feel as though I was lucky to have finished my pregnancies (we only wanted two kids) before I had to deal with this and I truly hope you make your way through this with the best possible outcome for you! Good Luck and best wishes 🙂

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