Went back to work for the first time since I’ve been off for the past two weeks. It was strange… I mean, the way people were acting around me was so uncomfortable. My current job is shift work and at first the pain was not too bad so I didn’t have any issue with my hours etc. But then it got worse. Every time when there’s pain in my stomach there was tears on my face. It was so hard because I didn’t want to cause my work any issues but at this point I’ve pushed my body to the point where I just couldn’t anymore. This has then caused me a lot of stress. I was not eating very much or getting enough sleep (So it made me feel ill and the pain got even worse).
My family and my partner have told me time and time again to do what’s best for “me/my body” and not what’s best for my work. At the end of the day what’s the point of working your health away when there’s no health to enjoy what you’ve worked for. Finally at the end, I actually listened and it was the best decision I’ve ever made. I have found a job role that’s more suitable for me, I feel a lot more relaxed and focusing on my health more.
Moral of the story is please do not feel bad for putting “you/your health” first. Because worrying about how others would feel, how work will react and not being able to work will only stress you out. As stupid as this sentence sounds; you only live once. To live and being able to enjoy your life the way that makes you happy is what’s important.
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